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anawrecksyourlife1980
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Location: Cincinnati, United States
Gender: Female
Interests: I love going to concerts, listening to music, restricting calories, running, and the feeling of emptyness in my tummy... oh and I play the guitar!
Occupation: Student
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Member Since:
5/4/2006
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| Im feeling quite down right now... im fatter than i have been in years... havent reached my h.w. yet... i dont know what to do anymore... i was dating a nice guy... but it went on hitus because he has a lot of issues right niow and who cant blame him... his grampa passed away, step dad died, and his father has stage four cancer in a matter of two months... so ive been just waiting on him to come back from californa... i just wanna be loved, but feel it wont ever happen. as for the weight i think im gonna train for a marathin cause it will drop off then... SOMETHING HAS GOT TO GIVE... I.HATE.BEING.FAT. Oh and this isomnia that has consumed me the past few days needs to just go away cause i want to sleep but feel as though i cant... guess i need to try and rest my eyes... night everyone... | | |
| well it's summer time and i have been super busy at the camp that i work at and had lost some weight but then im off this week and have put on some and i just really hate myself right now... my twin is even thinner than me now ... i just quit i give up i just dont want to do anything anymore... my body is so sore i cant even work out b/c i fell off of a horse yesterday blah blah blah | | |
| well life is still tough but what can you do??? i'm just trying to focus on my classes right now which is difficult when i also work... oh the fuck well... i'm 5 weeks away frm graduating and then trying to figure everything out so i can go to grad school we'll see. hope all is well with everyone.. | | |
| I was trying so hard to stop what I was doing. I've spent the past 5 years over a God damn toilet, but I can't seem to stop. Once I put weight back on I realized I can't live like that either. There's got to be another way! None of my clothes fit me and I feel like a BIG FAT FAILURE! I hate it... I'm torn between knowing what I should do and what I want. Fuck Me!!! | | |
| so ive been gaining but today i swam a half mile ran nearly 3 and did a step class... but i feel horrible... i still have 21/2 weeks left of class this semester and a guy who wants to date me but he lives 45 minutes away and i just dont feel like i can do this anymore... maybe dating is just not for me...
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